UH OH!

i just feel so lost and confused and stupid. i don't have the slightest idea what's going on or who's saying what, or what they're talking about?!? i dunno, i guess that's the problem- i just don't know!

Oh, o.k., I am glad it is not an unusual thing, I was starting to think I was crazy. It's like someone monitors the site, and pulls some stuff off, who knows?

hey ladies! wow i'm just like so lost and confused! ang, i guess where a couple people got to read the rest of your story before it vanished and you all are talking about it? um i hope that is what is going on? i'm just very lost and confused! and tabby wow! i had no idea there was so much to you! from dancing to ed to military, to black men to women to drugs to waterboy, wow! you've been here there and every where! you have an amazing story! and i love to hear about it! and ang, i'd love to hear about the rest of yours, someday when webmaster will let it post!!!

hey kinda random and probably a stupid question but could some one please explain the difference to me between molesdation and rape? sorry i'm slow!

So are you clean/sober now or still struggling? I go to a women's AA group in my hometown and it is kind of funny, the vast majority of my AA girls there are lesbians! People think women in women only AA meetings talk about men, but apparently they are wrong!

Wow I did the "black men" thing as well, actually (now that we are being totally honest!) I never dated in high school AT ALL (being a molestation victim made me basically asexual- not interested in anyone!) and then my senior year I began to have "feelings" for my English teacher (who is female and is also gay but is "married") So her and I (and the wife) all became friends after I graduated, and I got into the gay scene. I even dated this one gril (who was friggin nuts) then realized I was not sure if I was gay, so turned back to men (after two years of living as an OUT lesbian!)

Then I entered my "balck men only, please!" phase. The one guy was way older and I was 19, he was an officer in the military and actually wanted to marry me, but at 20 I ended things to become an alcoholic and party. Thus I began the "pathetic frat-rejected white boy" phase...

Now I am just convinced I am one of those people who "falls in love based on the person" (I know, how cliche) but I am okay with that. For years I would not even admit attraction to women, but now I am okay with it (of course being in the military I don't ADVERTISE this but I don't deny it to myself either!)

Now I have a huge crush on a water system operator in my county that I oversee for my job, he is younger- The Younger Man is my new frontier of dating!

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Edited by tabby15208 at 11/30/2006 12:58 PM

.K. girls, I have a break for a minute.
I am 31 years old, I have 2 kids. I got married at 17 and had my daughter.Husband was an idiot, wouldn't work, couldn't take care of us. My dad and step-mother took her away from me when she was 1 2/2 years old. Back then all I did was drink every now and then.
When I turned 20 I moved back in with my parents. I worked, did my thing and so on. Well, I had started to date black men, so my father disowned me, so needless to say I didn't get to see my daughter for a long time.
When I was 22, I became friends with a group of girls, we were all real close. They were all potheads, I would smoke pot on the weekends, if I didn't have to drive. Pot makes me paranoid. We would do crank on the weekends, cause we all worked, so we'd stay up from fri-sun, then crash Sunday night and get ready for the next work week. Then I met my sons father. He smoked so much pot, you could not even tell he was stoned. There is no way I could work high, pot makes me so lazy!! Anyway, I would take pills here and there, I tried ecstacy, wasn't too crazy about that, it made me have an anxiety attack. After my son was born, I quit smoking pot, i would just take percocets, lortabs, and xanax like once a week. And it was always one or the other, not all at once.

I wrote a long thing on here and it won't freakin" post!!!!!

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Edited by ang1975 at 11/30/2006 12:37 PM

ok so i guess i've kept ya'll waiting long enough! but the funny thing is, there's really not much to say! really the newest thing going on with us right now is that we're planning a trip to go back up to detriot in jan. for a big car show, i've always grown up around that kind of stuff and goat THINKS he's a "street racer" (haha) so he's been into for a while too so this is something very exciting to us! but other than that... really the only thing i have to say is it think i've found THE ONE! i just love him so much, you really have to idea what a wanderful person he is. not only does he always the the sweetest most perfect things to say, but he does them to! it's not like other guys who say they'll do this or promise you that, when he says something he means it! i'm just so happy when i'm around him, not only does he tell me that i'm a princess, but he makes me feel like one! when we go to get in his car, he'll walk out of his way around the car to unlock my door first, and not only does he hold doors open for me but he knows that i don't like to "lead the way", i'd rather follow so after i walk through the door he jumps right back up to the front and leads the way, and he holds me so close, i feel so safe and comforted with him. last weekend the most amazing thing ever happened, i stayed the night with him, which is nothing new or special because i've pretty much stayed with him almost ever night since detroit, but when i woke up in the morning i just rolled over and looked at him and he was already awake looking at me, and the most incredible feel just over came me, i was just filled, overflowing with happiness and love and was just so happy and thankful that i was there with him, and that he was there for me, and it was like that feeling you get after your first kiss with a guy your REALLY REALLY into but like times 50 billion! i just cannot explain it to the full extent. i'm just soooo soooo happy and soooooooooo much in love!

ok, that's all i have to say!